maybe wat i did is not something which she can accept... but do i deserve the death penalty? i noe she is rite, in tis world nothing is fair... but does she noe, she really meant alot to me... still remember wat i say n she agree wif it... "一个女人拥有她最爱的男人就等于拥有了全世界，一个男人必须拥有全世界只为了拥有他最爱的女人"do u still remember? i really thought abt wat i can do in order to let u stay by my side... i'm serious... it's true i have alot of gals friends... to my friends they might think tat she is jus another gal... but deep in me i noe she is not... n anyone who really got eyes can see tat she meant to me... even jiamei n xiaomei who went to played pool wif us told me very obvious tat i love her...
我真的不想放下那通电话。。。因为我知道她很可能不会再接听我的来电了，也不会再回我的简讯。对不气。当她在和我说话的时候我已经啃言了。我觉的我错了我没有考虑到她的感受。一路走来我真的不知道我自己在她心中的地位。直到昨天她的一句"u r a disappointment, u r no differen from the other guys"... 当我听到后我的眼泪就不由自主的流了出来。这时候我才真的了解原来在她心中我是存在着的。。。
she told me love is not a feeling... she asked me wat do i love abt her... i dun noe how to say it... but now i noe le... maybe she wun wanna noe it anymore or maybe it doesn't matter to her now... but i'll still say it out loudly, “我爱你的过去，我爱现在的你，我也将会爱未来的你。我爱你的全部！！！” n i really mean everything... ur good n bad all i will love n take it in my stride... maybe it's too late now to u... 可是对我来说我不甘愿就这样结束了！你明白吗？
i'll survive tis ordeal... i will become more stronger... to her maybe tis is the end of the story... but to me tis is jus the beginning... there will always be room in my heart for her... i noe myself too well tat i noe no one will be able to walk in unless i permits it...
it's really been ages since i last wipe a drop of tears... in my whole 26 years of my life now it's the third time i have cried for a gal... supposingly i dun think anyone in tis fucking world will care abt how do i feel or how am i doing... but i dun give a damn now n i wun in future cos one thing she taught me she wan me to remember it always... not to trust someone 100%... n i wun in times to come...
P.S i'll give my all in return of u!!! if climbing to the top of the world then i can hold u in my arms again i'll happily do watever tat requires me to...
