went playing on wed nite... still couldn't really jump... will still hurts... too much ppl on wed liao... n they actually come up wif win three in a row both team out... which means at least 30mins of rest everytime...

thurs went crescent park to play ball yet again... jogged my way there to warm up my ankle... can jump but still couldn't jump to my max... the uncles there complain tat i dun go there now... haha... they said tat my speed is gone...

think they dun realised tat i'm jus trying to put my techniques more than speed now in my game... tried out the moves liang taught me... keep on doing it... n nobody can d me... except the finishing must improved lor...

i've decide to go back to my gd old days as in playing everyday whenever i have the chances... tat is the best chance to polish up my skills n put watever i practice into use n make tat move part of me...

so jogging n upper body strength is my focus now... must get my fitness back to 101%... chong pang tournament coming soon... have alot to prove... myself, my coach, my teammates n oso my opponents... i have not another 26 liao lor... already 26 n closed to 30yrs old le... i'm getting old liao... it's time to go all out le...

as for the time being i will put aside the affairs of my heart first... cos watever will be will be... watever will not will not so wat for trying to make something out of it when the timing is not ripe... but first thing first i really need to be able to love n provide for myself first b4 i can go love others...

my gals r having their first match of the c division today... i'm not sure if i'll be able to make it there to support u gals... but u gals must noe tat i'm behind u all... jiayou for ur own sakes... n xuehan dun need to to prove to others... if there's anyone u need to prove, tat's u urself first... if u can't even convinced urself tat u belongs to the national level then u will not be able to prove anyone or anything...

go, go, go kangbai jiayou...

had a rather violent match against the wombats last nite... i think if it wasn't a match will have go on into a fight long b4 the game end... i simply dun understand y ppl jus can't stay clam n respect the game... wat is sportsmanship?

scored another14pts now is on the top 10 scorer list in the league... i still can't really jump... is it because of my ankle... or is it because my mind keep thinking of fear of injuring myself more... i'm not sure... but i will noe tonite at chong ghee's wed nite ball brawl...

improving or stagnant is only jus a minor difference... confident is wat i have now... n hopefully confident will make me out to be a better player who is self motivated... i think wat i lack now is normal ball games which in the past i almost played every single day... thru there i will perfect watever i learn...

after seeing my godma yesterday i feel tat my left ankle is healed... after times n times of pain killing massage the swollen began to fade away... i think i spent at least 3hrs having my whole left body treated...

get a life is wat alez say to me... but hey brother i have my life now... at least i noe wat i wan right now... career wise i'm still figuring out wat i have to do in order to get to wat i wanna be... i oso talk to robert jacquet last nite... trying to ask him for help in wat i have to do in order to get wat i wan...

it's kinda funny i always become closed friends wif foreigners... fucking americans calling me a bitch but sorry dude i'm no bitch... i'm a dick... haha... i'll never say die n give up wat i love doing most... n i still remember my promises to ya tat day at ur condo... i'll do my utmost best to fulfil it... even if it costs me my basketball playing span...

called me stupid fool for putting my span at stake... but rob isn't life always a gamble... it's either u make it or break it... determination is something i hope i can used to things i'm doing other than basketball...

basketball changed my fucking dull life... it made me belief tat other than being a reckless bad guy i had better things n challenges to attend to... although in my whole life heaven have been rather kind to me... watever things i wanted to i have got it... except for the affairs of the heart...

now i'm going to changed the outcome of my future... i actually have visions of seeing myself still playing basketball as long as icould do so... cos i love the game too much to stop from it... n now maybe after spoiling my own ankle so tat i'll never be able to play basketball again will i give up on tis game n moved on in my life...

omg it was really raining heavily last nite... n i was really cold n i think i shivered for the whole duration cos i jus wore a singlet n bermudas... it was so hot when i was at my house... n when i reached alez's house for the comics it started to rain... but it stopped when i left his house...

but kinda funny the rain started to pour heavier when i reached my destination... i reached abt 12plus one... wif nothing in mind cos jus dun noe wat to expect of... but after everything at least it was a fruitful trip... at least i can be sure of is tis wat i wan...

n i'm pretty much sure now... maybe i should have go earlier or maybe a few days or months or even a few years later... but i really believe tat everything happened for a reason... down wif fever now... but i'm indeed very happy to have make tat decision n went ahead n do it...

although the three questions all the answer i heard is not relevant to the questions... haha... but i somehow think tat some answer are not needed... silence is the best thing one could answer to watever questions...

as we grow older n see the cruel side of reality alot will forget abt their dreams... n only those who really persists towards it will be able to make it... but for now i'm lost in the lalang... or maybe desert... i dun noe... but i'll tried to move on n find the real meaning of my life... the real me...

life is always abt choosing A or B... at least to me it is like tat... but there will oso be times when u dun get to choose... so it's either u simply accept it or u refused it n stayed focus to wat u wan... n my philosophy jus happened to be "i can accept Failure, but i can't accept Not Trying" so based on these kinda so call stupid thinkings i will never bowed to anything... n i mean anything including the ONE up there who judge n rules n plans for tis world...

everything happens for a reason... n watever tat happens which wun kill u will only make u stronger... i am wat i think i am... i'm now becoming more n more immense to watever ppl have to say n think abt me... cos i dun live in tis world for anyone's sake...

I don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么
但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己
随便人家如何想我
我还是我

everything have two sides to it... it depends on how we choose to look at it...

it might not be true but it might oso be true...
depends on how u look at it...

就算是玩玩的也可以
只要能在一起就好
人有时
不能太自足
但有时
却不能不自足
她
我可不知是玩或认真
但是我却还是要认真对待
不管是真是假
是一秒
就一秒
不需要天长地久
也不要曾经拥有
那我要的是甚么
我要她...!

it's another boring day... after days n days of thinking i finally decided to go n do wat i wanna do... i remember she tod me b4 if i wanna do something jus go do it... i would go n try to wait for tat special one... even if it's jus a glimpse of her jus tat split second i'll be very happy...



tml nite be playing against Wombats at 1915hrs at acs barker road... i supposed after the match tml i will go straight to my godma's house... to have my left ankle n left wrist attended to... cos the next match after tml is saturday... so at least can rest for 4days...



my godma jus called me jus now... she ask me to help my godpa out in the taolism thingy... cos my godma have cancer n they went to a temple recently n they were told to start back the old altar n help ppl in order to prolong her lifespan... i haven't told her my answer yet... but i supposed she will noe my answer is yes... cos i love her... will have a talk wif her n talk abt the details when i go stayed over at her house tml nite...

hopefully i will get to see tat special one ba... even if she didn't see me it's oso okie... think i be going out soon... most pro i'll reached there at ard 0030am... wish me luck my readers... i noe i might b stupid but so be it lor... i dun care too much le la... if loving someone need to consider abt so many things then will be very tired de... hope rainbow will come after the rain n all the storm... will keep u all update abt wat is going on in my life...

my left ankle is becoming more n more swollen le... think it's getting kinda serious liao... if i were to go to the sin seh oso no use cos after tat i definitely have to recuperate at least a week no ball for me... but i dun think i will be able to stop myself from the only thing tat i feel happy when i'm doing... haha...

all due to yesterday match i had quite a few hard knock n i landed on my left ankle again... only 14pts for me against the globe ballers n a victory... but not too bad for a cripple... haha... maybe i should listen to my gals shouldn't be so emo... it jus dun suits me... LoL...

b4 the game me n alez share cab wif yvonne n sent her to her fencing training at clementi sports hall... took a few pics there... but look so funny lor... not used to having a weapon in my hand... if it was a ball i will feel more comfortable... haha...

after the game me, alez n friends went to newton circus for our dinner n went straight to k-box amk plaza after tat... had a fun session... singing to our hearts content... but one thing is ar when u feel sad ar dun ever go to ktv... cos watever u listen to or sing ar u oso feel like it speaks for how u r feeling at the moment...

ya anyway while we were walking towards newton circus after my match i saw fireworks... n i immediately thought of her... so i left her a sms which she never reply... but i supposed i have the result in mind when i sent tat sms le... i knew she wasn't going to reply me lor... but sometimes u jus cant stop urself from doing something u knew it wasn't meant to work out lor...

if peace is wat one can ask for.... i'll tried my very best to give tat someone the peace she hopes for... til the end of time i dun think i will ever have the peace i wan in my life... struggling at the moment to make myself in shape for the remaining games tis season...

was quite touched when my boys from bartley call me up n wanna meet me... they told me they miss me... haha... hopefully tis bonding wif them will never end n will last for the remaining years of my life...

P.S school reopening tml u gals finished ur homework le? dun jus keep thinking of playing...
remember u oso have to play ur part as a student... jiayou for the tournament... i will try to
take sometimes out to see ur game... but most pro i'll be hiding somewhere...

i was happy tat at least she is willing to pick up my call... n reply some of my messages... after my game which we won 30something points i went straight back... the moment i started up my comp n logged in to my msn acc, i saw her msg to me while i was offline...

in her msg she wanted me to fly n chased after my dreams... but i think she dun understand tat in my dreams there is not only me... it oso includes her... she say sorry she doesn't wanna hurt me... but i really think it's not her fault... so dun need to say sorry... i'll talk to ya face to face when u r ready to talk wif me... cos i dun think it's gd to talk tis kinda thingy over the phone or online...

back to my game... i had a 30mins game which i scored 16points... but my defence sucks cos we were playing man to man... n i couldn't really contained the black guy wif my swollen left ankle... i put on a brave front in front of my teammates.. i never told them abt me spraining my left ankle...

after the game i realised tat my ankle is getting more swollen looks exactly like a pig's trotter now... haha... jus thinking will i be able to make it for tis sat chong ghee training n mars game... but given my character i wun back away from challenges... i will go thru it wif all my will n might...

i believed she noes wat i mean n wat i wan... but i got a feeling she's not ready yet... i mean i dun need u to accept me now... but can we go back to wat we were like b4 wat happened tat fateful day? i dun dare to ask for much... tat's the only thing i ask for... like i say i wun promise u anything... cos i noe to us promises meant nothing... jus bull shits tat can cut n hurt us deep...

the only thing i can promise u is, 我会去找属于我自己的天空! 可是我真的希望你能陪伴我一起走过我的过度期... my plan for the future, at least for now i can say u play a part in my plan... whether my plan will succeed or not i'm not sure... but wif u by my side encouraing me n advising me... i believe i'll be able to overcome anything n i mean anything tat stands in front of me...

傻瓜我是认真的!!!

难道在雨天认识的真的只能成为好朋友吗？幸福真的永远都是短暂的吗？难道就因为这样我永远在你眼里就应该被判死刑？你真的就甘愿让一切就这样结束吗？

maybe wat i did is not something which she can accept... but do i deserve the death penalty? i noe she is rite, in tis world nothing is fair... but does she noe, she really meant alot to me... still remember wat i say n she agree wif it... "一个女人拥有她最爱的男人就等于拥有了全世界，一个男人必须拥有全世界只为了拥有他最爱的女人"do u still remember? i really thought abt wat i can do in order to let u stay by my side... i'm serious... it's true i have alot of gals friends... to my friends they might think tat she is jus another gal... but deep in me i noe she is not... n anyone who really got eyes can see tat she meant to me... even jiamei n xiaomei who went to played pool wif us told me very obvious tat i love her...

我真的不想放下那通电话。。。因为我知道她很可能不会再接听我的来电了，也不会再回我的简讯。对不气。当她在和我说话的时候我已经啃言了。我觉的我错了我没有考虑到她的感受。一路走来我真的不知道我自己在她心中的地位。直到昨天她的一句"u r a disappointment, u r no differen from the other guys"... 当我听到后我的眼泪就不由自主的流了出来。这时候我才真的了解原来在她心中我是存在着的。。。

she told me love is not a feeling... she asked me wat do i love abt her... i dun noe how to say it... but now i noe le... maybe she wun wanna noe it anymore or maybe it doesn't matter to her now... but i'll still say it out loudly, “我爱你的过去，我爱现在的你，我也将会爱未来的你。我爱你的全部！！！”　n i really mean everything... ur good n bad all i will love n take it in my stride... maybe it's too late now to u... 可是对我来说我不甘愿就这样结束了！你明白吗？

i'll survive tis ordeal... i will become more stronger... to her maybe tis is the end of the story... but to me tis is jus the beginning... there will always be room in my heart for her... i noe myself too well tat i noe no one will be able to walk in unless i permits it...

人们可以笑我笨，可是我不管他们要怎样看我。我将会坚守这份感情。。。继续的走下去。。。我会等着你回来的那一天。。。我所做的这一切的一切只因为我真的了解你对於我来说是何等的重要。我不会放弃的。我看到了我的未来会有你的存在。。。

it's really been ages since i last wipe a drop of tears... in my whole 26 years of my life now it's the third time i have cried for a gal... supposingly i dun think anyone in tis fucking world will care abt how do i feel or how am i doing... but i dun give a damn now n i wun in future cos one thing she taught me she wan me to remember it always... not to trust someone 100%... n i wun in times to come...

P.S i'll give my all in return of u!!! if climbing to the top of the world then i can hold u in my arms again i'll happily do watever tat requires me to...

actually started my day at1445hrs... i left my house for yishun safra took bus 969 but after three stops realised tat i left my safra card at home... so alighted n went back home once again to retrieve the card...

i reached my destination at 1530hrs... i went straight for the jacuzzi pool... i put my left ankle right in front of it... it was damned pain... n within awhile all those who were at the pool wif me were no where in sight which i guess is due to my facial reaction... haha...

she reached safra at 1600hrs... n man i must say all the guys were looking at her... but there's nothing i can do or could have do... she's jus so captivating... n subsequenly eric joined us at the pool... where i was quite surprised to see him there la...

n mr liang the guy who ask me to go early was actually the last to reach... he reached at abt 1800hrs... sharleen came along too... everything went well except tat she lost her goggles right in front of my eyes in jus tat split second... she was sad cos she jus bought tat at northpoint b4 coming over...

after tat we went to orchid country club to play pool n met up wif jiamei n xiao mei... i think we spent some times playing pool... but most of our times were spent talking n smoking at the swimming pool of the club...

we leaved there at ard 0130hrs where the place call it a day n so do we... was a very tiring day actually... spent alot of energy i guess swimming ard...

she ask me wat do i like abt her? haha... n my ans was i oso dun noe... seriously i dun noe y n wat makes me fall for her... but i supposed it should be jus a kinda feelings... whenever i'm wif her i have a very comfortable feelings which i have not had for a very long time le...

but anyway i ask myself do i really noe wat is love? except for the commitment thingy which she doesn't believe in... i guess everyone has different explanations towards it... there is no rite n wrong but actually depends on wat have u experienced b4...

she oso told me she believe tat i could make something out of my life... i feel very happy cos in tis world i think except for ah liang who still believe tat i could there's no one else le... but i simply dun care abt wat others had to said abt me... cos they have no right to judge me... accept me for who i am, not who i'm going to be...

desert n forest n lalang talk was gd... anyway i told her it's jus tat i still dun noe wat i really wan in my life... n she doesn't wan me to use her as a motivation to start doing something... i'm still looking for the forest which i belong... hopefully she will find hers too...

jus wake up from my sleep... the pain is getting more n more unbearable... i think i will be staying at home for these few days... cos even if i wanted to go out i dun think i will be able to manage my way to wherever i wanted to go...

so it's going to be a boring n painful rehab period for me... so supposingly i might most likely miss thursday game... but i will go down n see if i will make it on time to play... hopefully i will cos i dun wanna miss any games for tis season anymore.... i must keep my promise to robert jacquet... i will tried my very best to carry the team as far as i could...

my gals will be coming to woodlands to play ball today... i would like to meet up wif them but i dun think i'll be able to make it... to me now i feel as gd as i'm dead... i think there's no difference cos all the things i wanna do i can't for the moment...


swimming will help speed up the recovery? tat's wat i heard la... but i'm not sure how true is tat... but i guess i have to try watever methods to try to get back in shape for thursday... ice therapy is another methods which professional sportsman used to help themselves recover from their injuries... maybe i'll like to try it out too...

three more days to go... i wun give up any thoughts of making it for the game... god ma is the last alternative... cos i got 100% faith tat she will be able to help me... but i'm jus afraid of the pain when she rub my ankle wif all the strength she has...

hopefully i can recover soon...

injuried my left hip yesterday during training n oso strained the left side of my neck... after tat went for my bbaxn game... however liang n steven were not there yesterday n i get to play 40 mins yesterday... got a win but i'm not satisfied enough cos we should have won them by a bigger margin...

went to meet up wif her after my game... n was quite surprised tat she began to tell me more abt herself n her past... she told me she have some hp accessories for me... haha... n before i left for liang's place we had a gd bye hug... how i wished time will jus stopped at tat very moment...

went to liang's house to meet up wif my captain n teammates... cos it's my captain's birthday... n we head straight to boat quay... went to a ktv n the rest tried to make him drunk n vomit as they keep forcing him to drink... me n qingyao left at three... hope they enjoyed theirselves...

early morning after breakfast went straight home... head for my bed the moment i stepped into my room... went yishun to meet alez for basketball game n who noes sprained my left ankle... heard a loud crack sound... was really in pain... how come i keep injuried the left side of my body...

the first person tat gets to noe abt me spraining my ankle except for those who were present was her... i noe she's worried abt me... maybe it is a blessing in disguise... haha... but now as i blog it's still very pain... how i wish she's beside me now... but back to reality i noe tat's not gong to happen...

i will tried to get myself ready for tis thursday game... to my gals i think i'm really in love liao... haha...

P.S yesterday had past, tomorrow haven't come, focus on today

正当我睁开双眼 踏入这个世界
妈妈给我生命 现在让我自生自灭
这让我恐惧 在我的眼里每个人都戴着面具
回想过去 难道生命就是这样延续?
我抽烟抽得我的肺都黑了
就像整个社会被人心笼罩着 它也是黑的
我背着宿命的十字架
也渴望Power, paper and respect
我想这大概就是human nature
佛家说 烦恼即是菩提 我暂且不提
我倒是希望能够回到母体
老妈对不起 我时常把你气得跺脚
你说你后悔当初没有堕胎把我堕掉
每当我放学回家 放下那沉重的背包
家里空无一人 只残留着你香水的味道
那时我知道 你那天晚上又要加班
我打开冰箱 拿出微波炉吃冰的晚餐
老爸在凌晨两点钟醉醺醺地回家
我从睡梦中醒来 只听到你们在吵架
我没有办法专心面对第二天的考试
老师他不喜欢我 我也不喜欢老师
我讨厌穿制服 我讨厌学校的制度
我讨厌训导主任的嘴脸 讨厌被束缚
That's true 很多人不屑我的态度 他们说我太cool
警察不爽我都曾将我逮捕
I don't give a fuck about 人家说什么
他们想说什么就说什么 但是他们算什么
没有谁有权利拿他的标准衡量我
主宰是我自己 随便人家如何想 我还是我
爱钱的女人只给凯子摸
不懂得用保险套的人别嫌孩子多
金钱力量虽大 却生不带来死不带走
紧握着双拳的人们何时能松开手?
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
法庭严肃的空气逼得我快不能呼吸
当时面临着终生监禁的我开始反省
铁栏杆之后又是个截然不同的景象
刑犯们眼神中看不到一点和平的气象
仅有一寸短的铅笔 写的是监狱风云
日记上描绘的不是美好的户外风景
自由在他们眼里才是憧憬
放一把自制武器在枕头旁 以防随时有人偷袭
有些人怀疑老婆在外偷情
有些人把家人寄来的信件一张一张好好收集
有些人二十四小时几乎在床上休息
有些人精神失常 因为受不了打击
三个月如火如荼的漫长等待已过去
出狱后的我得面对三年的缓刑期
这也好 一生中第一次感觉到幸福
但生命中的考验何止如此我不清楚
我不知道 接下来还有什么会发生
翻开报纸的新闻又是看到放火杀人
还记得某年无意间发现的照片
上面有阿姨对男人施行口交的恶心画面
这简直摧毁了她在我心目中的形象
我无法忘怀照片中那笑容多么淫荡
我抵抗 胸口存在着不安及惶恐
我不断听到痛苦的声音在内心怒吼
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
不论我走到天南 不论我走到地北
不论我走到哪都见识到人心的虚伪
It's kinda funny 在人的眼里只有money
外表好像要帮你 却只是想帮他自己
笑容可掬的脸后面 谁知道是个狼心狗肺
连朋友都能背叛 因为只有名利合他口味
她说她爱你的时候讲的是问心无愧
搞不好她爱的是你身后的荣华富贵
你可曾困惑 在你身旁谁是敌是友
对你落井下石的可能就是你的挚友
你可曾经历 当你最需要帮助的时候
平常跟你称兄道弟的人都突然失踪
亲爱的神 伟大的神
你可以怪我想法太过无知 但我只是人
我不信人 因为人也不信我
不要问我为什么 我最多只能告诉你这就是我
生命像海浪一样有时高有时低
你是否告诉自己坚强渡过各种时期
我从命运的天台放眼却看不到星空
漆黑的天空压在头顶使我不得轻松
在我心中 找不到一个安静的角落
我不能再沈睡下去 良心彷佛在笑我
它在说:有几天几夜老妈曾经为你以泪洗面
老爸他只顾己见 希望之火只见熄灭
我接起电话是老爸憔悴的声音
虽没见面却不难想像他当时的神情
刚听完他最近失业的消息
脑海里马上浮现祖母的话 警告我一定要争气
我已经放弃所有哭的理由
因为我早就习惯冷漠活在无情的现实里头
人生要如何起头?改变要如何起手?
当活在泥沼中 要如何才能金盆洗手?
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
**Life's a struggle 日子还要过
品尝喜怒哀乐之后 又是数不尽的troubles
Everyday 有多少问题要去面对
有多少夜 痛苦烦恼着你无法入睡...
Uh...Life's a struggle
yeah...Life's a struggle

thursday morning 1230am i met up wif her... had a talk wif her under her blk... had a gd time talking... anyway i wore my blade to meet her... so was taller than her... haha... lol...

she tried to motivate me... cos she feel tat i feel inferior to my best friend... i really appreciate it gal... thanks for ur time n effort... i'll remember ur 4 criteria... firstly intelligent must be higher than u... secondly monthly income of hmm... i think i better dun put the amount here... haha... thirdly is filial piety... n lastly is the self upgrading thingy...

but gal do u realised who hears the loudest n clearest when u tried to motivate me? it is u lor... cos normally when i tried to motivate my friends i realised tat i feel tat i'll be more motivated than he is after the talk... haha...

i noe her life maybe is in a mess... but i'm willing to accept watever tat comes along... she keep telling me not to fall for her... haha... but i told her tis kinda thingy how to confirm n control... anyway a person past makes up the him/her presently... but the future is up to us to plan... remember when u fail to plan, u plan to fail...

i hurt my index finger n it's abit swollen from my game on wed... n tis is the first time someone help me rubbed ointment... n tat is oso the first time i tasted her culinary skills... although it's jus scramble eggs but is the thoughts tat counts... i think it can be consider the best scramble eggs i have eaten before... except when i cooked them myself... haha...

she intro me to a new song by shawn song... the title is Life's A Struggle... the lyrics really says it all... i think i'm in love wif the song.... for those who wanna hear it can go view the clip on my blog or go into the link at my blog to view the animation version...

tml will be a better day... jiayou JL... currently trying to prepare myself for the sat 1730hr game against mtu sparks...

P.S Dun be afraid to try to be Different! When u r lack of Confident, use ur Courage then!!! gal i miss ya...

we lost the game to the the pirates by 10 points... i think we have ourselves to blame... being outplayed n outclass in the first three quarters... they have lead us all the way thru out the game... we were never close...

in the last quarter we had liang, steven, daniel, kelvin n me on the court n we managed to cut down the lead from 24 to jus 4 wif 23.8secs left to play... i had a pretty bad game except for tat 3 pointer which was far behind the arc n closed the lead to 4...

i guess most of the players put their faith n trust in the five of us... except for one or two... they actually gave up on the game... come on wat is 20 points? all we had to work out is the defensive thing... so wat if we had the most powerful offense in the league but if we dun do defense like simple full court man to man... then it's really hard...

liang had a gd overall game... steven was average til the last quarter... daniel shouldn't be on the bench too much... he is a great arsenal to have... kelvin fought hard for all the rebounds but offensively he still can't finished strong... i had a disappointing game under my belt last nite... my homework til the end of the league is to try to maintain my shooting touch n finished it off...

mars time to regroup n focus on the game right from the beginning... not always in the third quarter then we start our run n play to our style... Sat 1730 playing against MTU Sparks... hopefully we can picked up the lost ground...

today will be a better day n there's training today at yishun blk 755 basketball court at 730pm tonite... sunday be going to sentosa... in a dilemma dun noe should i ask her along... or jus worried to be rejected... haha...

sat is my captain's birthday celebration... going for durians as usual at geylang n maybe after tat will go ktv at paradiz again or somewhere near there... guess it's time for me to go catch some winks... haven't sleep til after my game... my eyes r getting smaller n smaller as each sentences i typed... zhaoz liao...

p.s maintain ur spirit, maintain ur result

a few hours before game... i'm now at liang's house writing tis blog... jus went for a table tennis session... long time never play liao... abit interesting playing after so long never even touched a bat... haha...

a few hours more to go before the game today... feeling not very comfortable... got sore thoart... n bad cough... hopefully wun affect my performance later...

giraffe is ur leg okie le? i hope u seriously give it a thought... how long do u intend to play basketball? only tis year c division? retired after 2008? or u wanna play for years to come? if u wanna play for years to come i really suggest u take gd care of ur leg... best is do something abt it... i noe u love basketball alot... but u maybe able to play now but in times to come? can ur leg take the pain?

i noe i abit fan la... but it's for ur gd... to me all of u gals r like my own daughters... i dun wan anything bad to happened to u gals... so sometimes must seek the advices of old man like me... haha... must admit i old liao... cos i think i have generation gap wif u gals lor... LoL...

going to office first before heading for the game... Pirates watch out... here i come... looking forward to wed actually... maybe i oso dun noe how to explain y... but jus simply looking forward to wed... haha... tml will definitely be a happy n better day... jiayou J.L

haha... feel very happy today... jus updated my blog wif videos n songs... the youtube songs r really very nice n funny lor... listen to the whole song dun stopped halfway if u wanna view it... the first clip is abt a muar who is very proud of his muar chinese... second clip is part 2 of him but it oso say things abt singapore at the middle part... third is by lao zhar bo another funny old woman...

whereas for the song the title is 最后一次... it is sing by one of my friend's friend... her name is lovynn... her voice is very nice... the first time i heard tis song i was really touched by her voice... i tried asking her for the lyrics cos the lyrics oso meaningful... n she say she will get back to me... hopefully i wun need to wait too long for it...

all the above is my own personal opinions... maybe if u listen le u might not like it... u might not agreed wif me... but it's okie... cos everybody's opinion will surely differ...

n to those who r reading my blog... i have oso jus add a chatbox to my blog... so now u have two ways to leave me comments n ur opinions... so hopefully it will make things easier for u guys n gals...

can i noe other than asthma wat other sickness need inhaler? by the way anyone who noe anything abt yuzhen please keep me update...

tml still have bbaxn game... be playing against Pirates 715pm... the previous match we played against them we jus merely won them by 2 points... i scored 12 in tat game... but i'm thristy for more victories... haha... hopefully tml i can play a better game compare to my last meeting wif them...

actually i'm quite lucky i have a bunch of gd teammates in APC Mars... they r warriors who will never say die even in the hardest situations... but guys lets jus go all the way from start til the end... dun always start our engine only in the third quarter... cos we r capable of more things n more convincing wins...

thanks for all the trust n confidence u guys have given me... even our female supporters... i will never back away from a challenge... let's tried to be champions tis season...

as for Chong Ghee... i think i have the best teammates anyone in tis world could have ask for... gd to see us coming back together stronger... i'm now currently at a lost point in the team... i dun noe where do i stand... but believe me i'll get back into the right mentality asap...

will keep my readers n friends updated abt my life, my bbaxn games n chong ghee thingy... n maybe late july i'll oso update more on my gals team thingy... gotta run...

still waiting for love to knocked on ur door? stop waiting love will never come go look for it instead... haha i think my bunch of emo kids saw my blog n they all think i'm in love liao... LOL... wat the...

but seriously i think love is a formula... wat formula u must be thinking rite... is a mathematics formula... add the responsibility, minus the loneliness, multiply the happiness n divide the problems... haha...

maybe tis isn't a gd way to explain love... but anyway i think love really can't be explain... in different situations or when u meet different people u will have different feelings... different aspect towrds love... in fact love can be anything...

wat's the greatest love on earth? many will think it is everlasting love... but sorry it's wrong... the greatest love is a mum's love for her kids... she will do everything n i really mean everything to protect her kids... so if u r reading my blog now please go n think when was the last time u told ur mum tat u love her? when was the last time tat u hugged her? when was the last time u kissed her?

we do tat often when we were still kids... but now we dun cos we think very embarassed to do all tis to our mums... as we r already grown up... but always remember in ur mum's eyes no matter how old u r, u will always be a kid in her eyes... respect ur motherly love for u...

i sincerely think only when we learn how to be loved n loved ourself before we can really noe wat is love... dun need to think y i cant find my mr or mrs right... open up our heart n learn to accept the love from ur mum first... trust me love between guys n gals will follow suit...

haha... come to think of it it's very funny... different stages of my life i have different concepts towards love... may all those looking at my blog now find their true love which will result in mutiplied happiness...

went to the movies wif my friends n i'm glad tat she join me for the show... was quite surprised when she called me in the noon... i was having my nap n i supposed tat is the first time we really talk on the phone... i think we talked for abt 1hour plus... begin to noe a little bit more abt tis mysterious lady whom i noe at yishun safra...

she told me she will talked to me because she thinks tat i'm persisstant enough to keep trying to contact her n msg her even though she gave me ans tat is very attitude... haha... maybe tis is me ba... she seems friendly enough to talk around wif my friends... n luckily she did or else i supposed she will feel out of place... although she keep disturbing n bully me but i dun take it to heart lor... cos to me it's jus tat i dun wanna bicker wif u so i jus kept quiet n let u win lor...

if u happened to read tis blog ar, haha cos i would rather see u smile n laugh than angry n pissed lor... sorry didn't see u home.. cos at cine i say i will see u home but u say dun need... then i dun noe if u really meant wat u say.. but i choose to believe wat i hear straight from ur mouth...

it was a fun n memorable nite out at cine though... although the show zodiac sucks for sure.. but due to the one sitting beside me on my left... it was not tat bored after all... i think whether a movie sucks or not it depends on who's watching it wif u... n it jus happened tat the right person was watching it wif me... so at least we can talk to each another...

now while i'm doing tis blog she's talking wif me on msn... she will be flying off on sun n will be back by wed... she told me not to be worried abt her... n she say she will be good... n i actually tell her who says i'm worried... actually i believe u should noe tat i'm worried la... but jus trying to disturb u...

hopefully she wun find me a nuisance but ar one thing for sure stand beside her ar i find tat i like very short like tat... haha... but luckily i dun really care too much... height is not important lor... n i think we can be considered friends now... n jus let tis friendship blossom naturally...

by the way as a friend i sure care for u de... if anything tat comes along ur path n u need someone to talk to or a listening ear can jus look for me... jiayou for ur graduation speech...

someone jus came n look at my blog n she told my gals tat she was affected by wat i wrote... i feel very funny if u have not done anything wrong then y should u feel affected by someone whom u dun even noe... i'm not sure y would u go tell the kids abt u being affected... but maybe it will be of some help... cos they r still kids so they r very soft hearted... maybe they will listen to her more from now on ba...

to me no matter who coached them oso not important... wat's important is they played to their full potential... n being able to do tis first u got to noe ur players well... secondly there is a mutual trust between players n coach... it's no longer in the 80's where players will jus keep quiet n let the coach shout at him n the player still tried playing to his best for the coach...

it's a totally different era now... it takes two hands to clap... the players have to do their best n coaches please kindly remember to update urself on trainings n most importantly tactics to break down opponents defense... stop living in ur own world... walked out of it... if a coach is limited to only one or two plays then please dun shout at the kids... is not their fault tat they lose... cos as a coach u should bear all the responsibility...

to the kids they dun deserve the scoldings... to them basketball is a sport full of joy n fun... not scoldings n so call discipline off the court... i think discipline is how they control themselves n do watever a coach taught them during trainings in a game... if my kids have no discipline kindly explain to me y they managed to run the offense i taught them less than a month before tournaments...

time isn't an obstacle... is how u managed time... if u can organised ur time in how to operate the training well then there is no excuses y the kids aren't learning anything... maybe the one who saw my blog wun understand cos nothing like wat had happened to me had happened to her b4... y did i say i feel disappointed... simple because i put in my all in the team whereas i feel pissed when u say u feel affected cos remember wat u told the gals when they ask u y u wanna coached them... u say it's because u can get pay... anyway if u can get out of ur own world please kindly ask my kids for my numbers n maybe we could talk...

but dun get the wrong ideas... i wanna talk to ya because i noe if i wan my kids to get better then they might get to do wif a better equipped coach... so dun jus simply assume... u noe wat assume means? it means it will make an ass of u n me... wat happened is not on coincidence... it happened for a reason... wat i say i believed u noe wat i meant... who says i wan u to call me so tat i can say until u worthless... think for all u wan... but my kids will noe wat i'm trying to say...

kangbai gals i really hope to noe wat r u gals thinking individually... so please respond to me by either leaving ur comment or call me up... i need to noe cos i wanna build the core of tis new team... so please get back to me asap...

quite alot happened during tis period of time... first thing first the best news is finally the whole chong ghee team had commited themselves to the team's training n the future of the team seems bright... all r back together... hopefully we can play like how we were playing back in 2004...

secondly i had stopped coaching compassvale sec... all because of rumours n jealously between J n the teacher in charge towards me... they think tat i'm too close to my girls... they think i shouldn't have give them extra training... but as a coach how can i turned down players who r willing to learn to play better basketball... i've decide to set up a team outside school out of my own... n my gals said tat they r willing to train under me... tat's the only way of coaching them without people spreading rumours abt me together wif my gals again...

these two incidents make me realised tat setbacks only makes me stronger... i dun wished to question the power of the school... they might have think tat hiring a new coach for the school will pushed me to a dead end... but sorry i might have lost the battle but i have won the war... cos i'm not alone tis time round... my gals r in it wif me...

the most heartbreaking n disappointment moment tis year is when i saw how the new coach lead my gals out for a invitational tournament in woodlands... she doesn't understand my players... she dun noe wat they wan... it's really painful when i see wat i have sow being stamped by some grown up adults... dun think tat u can control the gals jus because u have drive me away... cos the gals have their own thinkings n unless they really wanna do it... if not even if they do it they will do it half heartedly... it's jus so simple... adults whom i talking abt n those like them please quit the act... stop acting like Mr nice guy in front of the girls when u have been back stabbing me n being nice to me in front of me... bonding will always pushed a team to a new height... maybe because of tis incident they will played better n trained even harder under me... hopefully it is a blessing in disguise...

if everything goes smoothly i will start coaching choa chu kang sec from wed onwards... n my time will be spent coaching n in helping ah liang...

to my gals who is looking at my blog... it's been fantastic working wif u gals... looking at u gals make me think of how i was like in the past... i'm never going to give up on u gals... unless u gals give up on urself... jiayou... dun let setbacks beat u flat on ur back... be positive n it will only make u stronger... let's get thru tis test together... gals if u read tis please leave me a comment to let me noe tat if u r wif me...

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